My life... Confusing me, what is wrong?

Hey, my mom did the same yelling and stuff. It drove me crazy and led to drugs. All I can say is stop it now. The drugs just destroy your connection with this incredible universe and f--- up your brain. And I do not no how old you are but-- I was 15 when I did stupid stuff. Now I am 31--- It gets so much easier when you get older.. And know that the feelings you have will change as you grow up. seek out a good counselor too.